Senin, 11 Mei 2015

is this Social anxiety or Broken Home

Let me explain to you guys what is Social Anxiety means 


- Social anxiety is a specific form of anxiety. It is an emotion characterized by a discomfort or a fear when a person is in a social interaction that involves a concern of being judged or evaluated by others.

- Broken Home : a house containing a family that is set apart due to tensions and certain problems. ex: a kid's parents constantly fight and he/she feels lonely, depressed, angry. that is a product of a broken home, who may usually get away from the problems by doing bad things (drugs,drink,etc...). broken home can range from a project in NY, a suburb, or ironically, a 5-story mansion 

i found this article whose had a similar situation like me 


"My mom and I are always fighting and i have had enough of it and so has she. She does not listen to me when i’m trying to tell her how i feel and when she does (which is rare) she doesn’t try to help she just tells me why i’m wrong and how disappointed she is with me. It’s always “okay, but…” and i can’t stand it! I am a very opinionated person, which can be annoying, but so is she. I always say what I think is the right thing when we’re fighting but no matter what her way is the only way and if i think it shouldn’t be she screams at me and slaps me! I have tried many times to just talk to her civilly about things but it always leads to a fight. And she never accepts the fact that sometimes she is wrong, even when she is OBVIOUSLY wrong.
Another thing that she always does to me is tell me all these things that are wrong with me but when i tell her things that she needs to try and work on she says “I am your mother, not your friend we don’t work things out, you listen to me!!” which i think is ridiculous because all i am trying to do is be the bigger person and try to balance things out by compromising. I tell her that i am trying so hard to fix things and that she just needs to put in some effort so that things will work and her response is “Try harder, and do everything i say. Then we won’t need my effort.”

Why we always bickering? if i had a mistake she always yells at me even it's a small mistake. i cried every night but she didn't know it. when she yelling at me, i just can sighing and keep silent for a moment until she done it. when i make some project, she never made me proud of my works, like. when the first time i make a cake, she said that this cake didn't have a good taste or else. i cannot tell my family about my hobby and my future, they'll judge me. in 2012 i went to an Audition for the first time. she said that she wants to see my auditions video. i let her to see it, and guess what did she say? you cannot control you breathing technique, you can't be a singer, just goes study, it's wasting you time and our money. i'm not proud of you. she always judged me as hell. she doesn't care for me maybe be a little but doesn't much. she never love me , even though she said that she loved me because I was her daughter. but i don't feel it. i cried when other friend can be a bestfriend for their parents, i just can't. we were starting bickering maybe from, i? primary school? we used to bickering, my father always separating the two of us. i can't live, i can't stand. i cried every night. keep silent. but she? God let me go to the heaven, i was to tired since then until now.

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