You Hurt My Feelings Again

ok maybe this's the thousand time i felt so angry and sick cuz my mom. i can't express when i feel angry or what. i just gave her a death glare or spoke with a high tone. "i'm not a good daughter" i know. but she's so annoying for me, she always said "clean this!, i clean this! why you keep this room in messy!" OK! this is my stuffs if you want to keep clean then go to your stuffs not my stuff. i'm sick of you! i just wanted to runaway from this hell. when everything goes well. something bad will happen and she keeps yelling at me, i never sharing with my mom until my 18th birthday. it might be forever because of what? i don't trust her. i never trust her. maybe my friends said "you have a good mom or i think your mom is kind blablabla" "don't judge a book from the cover" she said i often angry or arrogant or cold-hearted. yes i'm cold-hearted because when my childhood you never gave me a warm-hearted words or hug or anything. i grow up to be an introvert because of you. you nave allow me if i want to play with my friends or go to park. SHE NEVER ALLOWS ME. maybe this's 10% of my feelings. there's a secret inside a secret. i want to ended my life.